It’s been a month since I was diagnosed with breast cancer again. It’s been 3 weeks since finding out it’s stage IV. I can’t believe that just a month ago, I was walking around thinking I was completely healthy and cancer free. It’s amazing how quickly life can change.

On March 22nd, I had a spinal biopsy to determine the characteristics of the lesion on my L2 vertabrae. Although we knew it was most likely cancer, a small thread of hope still existed that perhaps it was something else. On Monday the 26th, that small thread was cut. The oncologist called and confirmed that the spot on my spine is indeed cancer. He still didn’t have a lot of information about it’s characteristics, but at least the waiting game is over. I would like to say I handled the news with grace and wisdom, but I didn’t. I broke down again. I imagine that might happen a lot on this journey. But, I’ve learned it’s preferable to “holding it all inside” and letting it fester. A good breakdown can do wonders for your perspective. At this point, the L2 vertebrae is the only known site of spread. For that, I’m very grateful. It could show up in other places as well, but I’m going to do all I can to prevent that from happening.

So, now I know my enemy.  On Friday, I will meet with my doctor to devise a plan of attack. I’m not sure what the plan will entail, but I’m guessing a little bit of everything…, chemo, radiation, drugs…..not necessarily in that order. But I know that I am ready to give it all I have got. I like being alive, I enjoy being here and I will fight to stay as long as possible. I know I have a long road ahead, but I also believe in myself and my strength. I’ve got many walking the road right along side of me… family, my friends, my co-workers, fellow cancer survivors, and God. Cancer may end up winning the war……in the end…..but I have MANY battles I plan on winning along the way. It won’t take me without a fight!


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3 Responses to Perspective

  1. Sarah says:

    Dang I love you! You are my hero! You go girl, put on them boxing gloves and kick butt!

  2. ahcdwyer says:

    After I read your latest news, I looked in my Bible under “God’s Promises… Strength.” The first scripture I was directed to reads this: “He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Event youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and now grow weary, they will walk and not be faint” (Isaiah 40:29-31).
    Kay, may you embrace hope and walk, run, and soar. Much love! Heather.

  3. Carole Barkley says:

    Kay, you might be interested in this perspective on describing cancer treatment as a “battle.”

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