It’s been a month since I was diagnosed with breast cancer again. It’s been 3 weeks since finding out it’s stage IV. I can’t believe that just a month ago, I was walking around thinking I was completely healthy and cancer free. It’s amazing how quickly life can change.
On March 22nd, I had a spinal biopsy to determine the characteristics of the lesion on my L2 vertabrae. Although we knew it was most likely cancer, a small thread of hope still existed that perhaps it was something else. On Monday the 26th, that small thread was cut. The oncologist called and confirmed that the spot on my spine is indeed cancer. He still didn’t have a lot of information about it’s characteristics, but at least the waiting game is over. I would like to say I handled the news with grace and wisdom, but I didn’t. I broke down again. I imagine that might happen a lot on this journey. But, I’ve learned it’s preferable to “holding it all inside” and letting it fester. A good breakdown can do wonders for your perspective. At this point, the L2 vertebrae is the only known site of spread. For that, I’m very grateful. It could show up in other places as well, but I’m going to do all I can to prevent that from happening.
So, now I know my enemy. On Friday, I will meet with my doctor to devise a plan of attack. I’m not sure what the plan will entail, but I’m guessing a little bit of everything…..surgery, chemo, radiation, drugs…..not necessarily in that order. But I know that I am ready to give it all I have got. I like being alive, I enjoy being here and I will fight to stay as long as possible. I know I have a long road ahead, but I also believe in myself and my strength. I’ve got many walking the road right along side of me…..my family, my friends, my co-workers, fellow cancer survivors, and God. Cancer may end up winning the war……in the end…..but I have MANY battles I plan on winning along the way. It won’t take me without a fight!